A lot of you on my page have asked how you can help me out or send me things even though you may be far away or unable to see me regularly. I have had wish lists in the past but updating and maintaining it, waiting for it to ship, sizing issues… I could go on with the trouble I’ve had with it all. I have had chip in’s before so I figured I would go back to using that. Anything you donate to my chip in (link below) I get to have put directly in my pay pal which is universally accepted on the web on several sites I buy toys and costumes on. It’s certainly less personal and not as fun but if you donate you may request what I use the money for. Say you would like me to buy a naughty sailor outfit… just let me know! Maybe you want to put money towards a new tat or a new toy… just let me know. I truly appreciate when anyone offers to buy or send me anything. If you are still wanting to send something personal to me, I can always have it shipped to the club. Just thought I would make it easier on us all. Link below!

http://toxicdiva.chipin.com/outifts-props-toys-tats

So the qualifier at Mystic last night went pretty swimmingly, I think. I’ve missed a stationary pole but when finally getting back on, it took me half of my performance to remember why I wasn’t moving when I jumped on to the pole! It’s funny how your brain gets so used to the same thing over and over again! Time to start practicing on both types of poles regularly. There is no pole consistency in this state. Different heights, metals, widths, and the spinning/non spinning are all factors in performance and though I’ve been on every type I usually stay at one club at a time and get used to whatever is there. Oh well! guess that means I have pole hunting to do

I have to say that Cricket rocked it last night. She never ceases to impress! She doesn’t even break a sweat while dazzling us all. She was definitely the highlight performance of the night.

I want to be more prepared for the finals so I will be a busy gal, coming in early before my shifts for some practice. I drew the sin of WRATH, which should be fairly easy to represent but I want to have a very theatrical performance. I’ve been dabbling in costumes and props again, something I did every night when I first started dancing long before I knew any tricks.

The finals are July 2nd at Dante’s and I will be updating info for that as soon as I get it. I will also be doing a special give away for two tickets to the finals so stay tuned for that as well. Just wanted to update everyone on how last night went!

Thank you to everyone who came out last night! I know some of you couldn’t make it and will be at the finals. So many faces from the Pallas, others who sent their love and good luck wishes with those who did attend, the facebook posts, the texts… it’s all so very appreciated!

Beads from my stage set

As many of you who have visited the Pallas as of recent on Saturday and/or Tuesday nights you may have seen our male dancers strutting around the club while not making our lady customers scream with delight. I, having had a horrible past experience with a certain male dancer (another story, another time), was reluctant to acknowledge the male presence at my home club up until now but let me just say these guys have grown on me!

In fact, my own interaction with them has given me a new perspective on the entire world of male dancers and turned my thinking from overly skeptical into brightly positive. In plain words: Our guys rock. Though, I myself am not super interested in what male dancers do in a sexual aspect, I can certainly appreciate what they do and they do it well.

Many clubs around the greater PDX area have had or still run male revues. After speaking with many of the women who come to the Pallas for us ladies and have also had their time in the back with the guys, I have heard incredible feedback on their performances and their charming personalities. You start to hear the same reviews for the same clubs, same dancers after but each and every woman I have asked has said that they thoroughly enjoyed their time with our guys and that they would definitely return for some more action.

Ladies Nights are Tuesdays at the Pallas and at 10:00 the guys take to the revue stage (a concealed area for the ladies only, so don’t worry about seeing anything that isn’t ass and tits and nah nah). We of course still have our lovely Goddesses of the Pallas gracing our stages as well. Drink and menu specials all night long. We also have the guys on Saturday nights too for all the weekend party girls out there! Maybe you are just out on the town with the girls, maybe you are getting married soon and want to have some bachelorette fun… whatever your reason being, even if it’s just to check out some hot guys and stuff some singles down their drawers we have a very talented trio of hunks to take care of your needs.

Remington credit AmbeRed Photography

Titan credit AmbeRed Photography

JD credit AmbeRed Photography

So a lot has changed in the last few months. Health problems are pretty much gone and I’ve been doing a lot of work getting in shape and improving on my self not only for pole work and web camming, but also for a return to modeling and the wrestling ring. I’ve made great strides in such a short amount of time and I’m pleased with the progress.
I no longer dance in Salem. When I was younger and even before the time I worked as a dancer in Salem, there were standards. Not so any more. Prostitution and dirty drugs run rampant through the clubs as well as the fact that patrons in the city are more focused on how much they can get for free or for as little as possible instead of paying respect to the erotic art form displayed around them.
It’s not the economy, it’s not that people don’t have much money. It’s standards! When that goes and quality goes, they feel no need to treat you as a performer or a lady. I can get naked on my own time and if you want more then get a dance. My stages are for a display of my hard work and talents and when men say “Fuck this! I didn’t come here for pole tricks!” you kind of get the hint that you should get out of town.
So I am busy in Portland at a club I’m happy to say is not only a much better money making and performing environment, but at a club with a booker who has his shit together. Dancers make horrible manager because their minds never leave the dancer in them behind, which is drama and unneeded drama at that. I have a great time on every shift and have even started working Thursdays for the first time in years. 
The Pallas is undertaking a huge transformation and I am happy to be a part of it and will be proudly representing them in Ink N Pink competition this year! It’s coming soon and I will post dates and times as soon as I have them! I really want to see my friends, regulars, and fans come out and support not only myself but Pallas Club as well! Votes make a difference and now I know what to expect from a competition experience so I am ready to hit full force!
I will be web camming once or twice a week as well. It’s been a while but I miss it and am happy to have more time for it now! Now I have two friends to join from time to time as well! I will be on this Wednesday around 7 or 8 but will of course post details tomorrow.
I finally found a better way to develop my site (which is why it is in a severe state of limbo) and will be updating it this week. I also have many photo shoots booked for April so new photo sets will be available as well!
My new facebook is now facebook.com/toxicdesire in case you were unaware of the fact that my previous profile was deleted. New photos up on xoticspot.com/toxic as well! 

What an amazing event! Terrific performances by some of the best there is in PDX and an amazing turn out which demonstrated the support of our industry and the awesome talent that we boast here in the Northwest! The first ever PDX Strippie Awards was a definite success and it was great to see a lot of my Portland friends. 
Congratulations to all the nominees, to all the performers, to everyone who won. Thank you to Rocket and Hezzy for an inivative idea that was transformed into such a great event. 
Thank you! Each and everyone of you who took the few minutes out of your lives to vote for me. I know sometimes that extra little thing can sometimes be a lot in todays busy world. Thank you, for making me a nominee and for voting me Best Stage Performance.
I will be aiming for Miss Nude Oregon 2011 and if my shoulder allows it I will be going for Pole Erotica. 
Again thank you! The support you all show me is overwhelming and you have my love for it! 

Thank you all so much for your support! Those of you who took the time to vote for me in the 2010 PDX Strippie Awards made my nomination for Best Stage Performance possible! Without the support of each and everyone of you I would not be so inspired to move forward and keep doing bigger and better things! Thank you a million times over! A special reward is awaiting those who voted! Just forward your vote to fans@thetoxicdiva.com and I will get you hooked up! Signed photos, a special video, and I am also adding one lucky voter to a very special raffle which will be announced Monday! Love and again much thanks!
If you are interested in seeing the show, here is the flier which you may click to view the official Strippie Awards page!

A few of you may have seen posts via Myspace or Facebook regarding MFC. This site is absolutely amazing and I just wanted to make sure everyone knows about it. For me it is just like exotic dancing only via cam. I get to meet literally hundreds of people a day and have already found some awesome new friends.

This site features models and has users from around the globe, making it one of the most unique experiences. For those of you who have never made it to the site, it hosts online live web cams and chat rooms for beautiful women to entertain you. You can even tip and get private shows, just like at a real strip club. I have had a bunch of friends sign up to see me preform on cam and chat for a bit and haven’t heard any negative feedback about the site as of yet. I just LOVE it!

I will be getting into a normal routine with the site here shortly. A few hours  a day, 4 or 5 days a week on top of working at the club. It’s really the best of both worlds! I will be posting a definite schedule on there each week… so if maybe one of the dates or times doesn’t sync up with your free time then please let me know. I am on there for you, the viewer!

I was going to feature a web cam service like this one on my own site. For now I will just be on MFC. When my site is rebuilt I will have a private session once a week for members only on MY site but it will separate from MFC. I will announce all this when my full site relaunches.

For now you can find me on MyFreeCams.com and my user name is Toxic_Diva. It is FREE to sign up… I DO mute guests, so if you try to chat without registering your messages will NOT get to me. It is also very affordable to buy tokens for tipping during my shows.

If you stop by and find it’s not your thing, no harm done but like I said a lot of my friends signed up when I made the announcement and all seemed satisfied. It only takes a few minutes to register and you are good to go.

Those who do purchase tokens have special privileges that basic members do not have access to. Be sure to at least buy a small amount and be generous to any lady you may chat with on the site. ANYTHING GOES!!! So don’t be a freeloader! Stopping by to say hey is awesome but sticking around and watching on other people’s dime is just as bad as coming to a strip club, watching, and not tipping.

Special raffles will be held during my time on cam and I take requests. I am on the site not just as an alternative work source but also to have fun and entertain all my viewers.

A SPECIAL THANKS to everyone who did sign up and say hi or even tipped! I had a blast and you guys made my first time broadcasting very memorable. I had the HIGHEST cam score on the site for a good two and half hours, making it to the very TOP of the line up on the home page. YOU ALL MADE THAT HAPPEN! I have such great support from all of you. You rock my world!

xo TOXIC

Hello all! I have been very busy reformatting and reconstructing my site. Haven’t even finished with the wrestling section just yet, though many pages have been added to it or revamped in the last day. It’s a lot of work!

Previously I constructed the site myself in the very beginning. Then a friend took over it for me, but could not keep up with it due to personal reasons. Then I hired someone to maintain the site and the members section for me. BAD IDEA. He stole money from me and deleted all the membership info before I could change all the passwords. So I don’t even know just how much he stole from me… there will of course be a major lawsuit to recoup the damages!

So I trust NO ONE o maintain the site anymore outside of professional firms which charge too much of a percentage and would make me hike up membership prices which I do NOT want to do. I charge a very fair price for the different memberships to my site. These go towards shooting new photo sets, producing merch, maintaining the site and paying for it, as well as the fair amount of profits I receive for my services. I do not need to make excessive amounts of money off my fans and refuse to gyp you guys. I have an actual job or that, but of course naked photo sets and exclusive wrestling/modeling content is something I feel is a service and therefore I do charge.

So I have tore down a lot of the site and am rebuilding just like I did in the early days of my wrestling career. It gives me time to reflect on my past and all the things I have accomplished. It also keeps me occupied and away from drama, just focusing on myself and thinking up new goals for the future. Also it guarantees me that I will not be ripped off again and that I can fully control the content of my site without being held responsible for anyone else’s actions.

My future hopes for my website tie in to my future goals for myself and my career. A much broader members section will be available by April featuring tons more exclusive photo shoots, behind the scenes video, the giveaways/contests will return, and personal video chats.

As my modeling career grows I will continue to display many exciting new sets for you all that will not be available on myspace, facebook, or any other commercial site. That is my reward to you all!

As I make a return to wrestling soon I will make sure that my loyal fans will have discounted ticket prices, discounted merch prices, their pictures back up on the site, as well as bonus rewards for previous members!

I have been in bed for over a week due to ovarian cysts, which unfortunately plague my family. The pain sucks, the being stuck in bed sucks, missing work and working out sucks. BUT it has given me an ample amount of time to reflect on my past, my present, my future and all the people who have been there for me and who have supported me. I know what makes me truly happy. Above all my FANS are so awesome, so amazing, so unbelievably adoring and supportive and it has given me such peace to know that through the years they have stuck by my side. This enables me to do anything and everything.

If you have ANY ideas about what to add to my site, what to include in the public or private sections of my site, or if you have any questions you can always write me at fans@thetoxicdiva.com

xo Toxic

I missed my blogging days and have revived my blog! Out with all the old posts and ready to dish you out some more. Uncensored, all me, nothing off limits. Weekly updates (at least) focusing on my crazy life in pro wrestling, MMA, modeling, partying, stripping, and all around debauchery.

One of the many benefits of having my own website is I can say or post anything I want! Being said, Myspace (besides from the other dozens of obvious reasons) SUCKS. This page is dedicated to the free speech suppressing fascists who are most likely an entire crew of overpaid virgins (how ironic a social networking site is most definitely maintained by those computer geeks you picked on in high school and took hired dates to prom. I know this because such a person from my own high school does currently work for Myspace…anyways).

They allow everyone bimbo from California to slightly cover up nippage or beavage with little stars or dots so they can still post nude images on myspace. After trying to upload the following images, they were immediately deleted. Many of my own modeling photos have also been removed over the last year, but still even some almost identical in content remain… even on the Hard Candy myspace my ad can be found with a fully exposed breast. However the exact same ad but with a star over my boob was uploaded into my own albums and was deleted.I wrote myspace and they gave me a copy of the TOS… which I am clearly not violating while others (including our own Exotic Magazine) get their covered up naked pictures posted.

So I rewrote them and asked what the hell was up with this and surprisingly they responded…Apparently what I am doing is a loop hole in the system. No nudity, implied or edited. However, they erased several images after receiving more than 3 complaints. These complaints are made when someone views an image and clicks that “report image” button. Which means these people must be on my friends list due to my everything being set to private to everyone but my friends list.

So to all the insecure hater bitches who click that “report image” button and actually take the time to fill out the complain form, lighten the fuck up. If you don’t like what you see in the mirror then go for a jog or comb your hair, do some sit ups and trade that chocolate in for some celery sticks.

I had 14 comments left in a 3 minute period on the 2 photos I got to upload and ALL of them were positive. Guys really loved and I mean raved and internet applauded the lesbian orgy below. I’m sorry you are a critical closet lesbian and are too worried about your poor self esteem to be adventurous. Or maybe you are a conservative, arrogant christian. People like you do NOT belong on my page to begin with so get fucking real. Click the “edit friends” button and delete me instead.

Let the rest of my thousands of friends enjoy what I have to share with them in peace. At least one guy is going to get a chub off this and you almost stopped that from happening. Maybe that guy needs to rub one out before he snaps from torrential stress and shoots up his office tomorrow, killing several co-workers and possibly wounding several more before turning the gun on himself. Are you going to clean that up? I didn’t think so.

This lesbian fuck fest in celebration of Statutory Ray’s 30th birthday will be seen. Myspace can delete the uploaded pictures, but they can’t control the very, very adult content on my personal web page.

Be a hater on your own time. Go feed your various cats in your tiny apartment, squeeze into your sweat pants, take that worn out scrunchy and throw your tangled hair up into an even more tangled bun, go watch your “stories” and wish you looked as good as any girl in any of the following photos.

I hope if there’s a chance you even have a boyfriend or husband of your own, he’s there the next time a completely random, five girl, drunken, lesbian, birthday orgy breaks out. And by god and the powers of Grey Skull I really hope he goes home, milks the one eyed snake in the shower, and tells you he’s too tired before falling asleep with the lesbian orgy images permanently embedded in his mind for all his life.

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